~`-[F]rEeze[G]eR-`~

2003-05-21T04:53:00.000-07:00

*sNeeZe* wa lauz.. damn -.- lehz.. haha got fLu.. and i hate it.. lolx... wa lauz.. my stomach still pain lo.. u guys keep on making me luff.. until until... w alauz.. dun sae liaoz pai sehz siah.. haha... =X aniwae had lots of fun todae la.. although i felt like dying coz of the flu im having... SARS~~! hmmm.. aniwae my dae started as per normal.. sianz.. haha.. but at least got my zhu to pei me lo.. haha.. not that loneli.. haha.. wahhaah.. ok la.. hmmm dan went to school.. duno y i feel so tired.. haha... its like i slept at 11 last night lo.. dan got flu the whole dae.. diaoz.. dan went to the library fer gsP.. haha.. din even study lo.. was plaeing lo.. heyXx.. but it wasnt my fault.. we keep on luffin.. haha.. dan after i tio choke.. haha i felt much betta.. but when i left school... the fLu was back~!~! arGhh.. damn irritating siah.. keekzdan went to mac.. it was damn crowded.. dan went back to school to wait fer ger n the rest of them.. lolx.. dan went to t mart..dan went home le.. haha... haf been spending lots of money this few weeks.. die la.. lolx.. alwaes eat out.. haha..die siah.. kekez..wanna go n rest le.. haha *sNeeze* *cONquereD bY conFusioNs*

2003-05-19T04:41:00.000-07:00

thiRty daYs gonE.. a moNth? buT nothiNG reAllY chaNged.. but maybe he's feelings for me is no longer there and.. yeah.. he jux left... bEst wiShes frOm me to you ba.. hMmm aT last i walked pass that place todaE ba.. afTer avoiDing thaT place fer like wan month.. i fiNallY did it~... haiz.. he used to wait fer me every mornin every single dae.. till last month... exactly thirty daes back... hMmmm canT go to school aloNe noW siah.. feel so uneasy.. haiz.. *shake head* hmm.. but at lEsaT i stIll have a lot of frens to care fer me.. i FeeL so luCky=)) haha + mOi zhu=)) steady liaoz.. kekez=) hmmm.. had a great time todae... although was kiNda -.- haha buT... afteraLl=)) kekez hmm.. sumting very fuNni hapPened diS moRNing.. kinDa lAme.. lolx.. hE-->zhU met me @ my hoUSe.. dan he sent me to school.. haha... we wanted to take bus 3.. haha but nonE appEard.. lolX.. dan when we were jux about to leave the busstop anfd take a cab down.. haha.. haha was bout 7.06 liaoz.. lolx.. buT no caB apPeareD>.< lolX.. daN afTer thaT we weNT to the inTerchange.. haha and took 291.. so Zhun.. thE bell rang the very moment i stepPed into the schoOl.. pRo seH.. haha JKjk loLx.. pAi sEHx liaoz haha.. hMmm dan mR wonG was LOokiNg fer me.. lolx.. so funni haha.. i fergot to bring his discs to school.. haha.. dan we were like "quarelling" in the middle of the qUratraNgle.. lolx.. i lUff until i -.-" haha.. the english paper was like..>.< omG lo.. haha.. dan after sChoOl... zHu waiTed fer mE oPp ouR schooL.. haha.. dan i Had to gO homE to get the cds fer wong.. he saw me with him.. dan keep on asking him if he was my boi.. lolx.. so funni.. haha... buT afteralL we ended up at cenTury squAre.. haha.. watched [wHIte rooM] toTal waste of monEy... $13 lehz.. haha.. no money liaoz lo.. lolx... watched 3 shows in 9 daeS? lolx.. haha.. die siahz.. i Tot it would b very scary.. haha.. dan shioK ma.. wa laux.. afterall.. its a pIEce oF blOody [bLue hElL.. lolX] toOt.. lolx.. loUsi shoW.. haha... toTal waste oF time.. haha.. hEng pEiwen nV watCH. if not u will see me dead.. haha dan ate pOpcoRn AFTER that.. hahah.. lamE..-.-" meT nuEr and went to mac.. again.. lolX.. ate ice cream n friEs.. lolX>. agaiN. .haha.. diaoX... hMmm haD lotS of Fun.. haha... thankz guyx=) thankx zhu=)) kekez.. he sent me home.. dan went to analyse my bill haha tio shock siahz.. haha... daN i wenT hoME le=)) bBL=XconFerenCe~!~! *i will never ever forget this dae=)*

2003-05-18T00:23:00.000-07:00

hOt siaH~ bUay ta Han lehz.. wa lauz.. cRying haha... hmmm so tired.. got too mani things to do.. but i duno which to start from.. aRghhhh.... so hot~!~!~ hmmm duno where to go later lehz.. mayb meeting jon n wen ba... hmm at least i dun realli needa worry bout so mani things le lo.. me n henry ok le.. after like.. not talking to each other fer like a week.. scary siahz... this is the first time we haf a COLD war until like that lo.. but fer emily.. hmm i reali duno wad she's thinking ba.. i reali duno wad to do lo.. just stand here and stare into the sky... crApx.. i think we walk wan step @@ wan step ba... exams cummin le.. but.. haha i have not started lo.. to me... theres alwaes a tomorrow... going outx`!~~!~bBl

2003-05-16T07:00:00.000-07:00

wooohOoo.. im so -.- kekez.. tireDzz... had a loNg dae.. haha.. walk up n down fer nuttin.. ekekz=) hmmm the duno minister came to our school.. haha dan saw sum of my frens on tv.. lolx.. so funni.. haha no OffEnce.. hmm sae yMs classmate.. haha duno hu too yeah.. haha die la.. i lost my emaths file.. needa redo everything~!~ oh no~!~! haha leg pain.. keekz.. walk alot todae.. haha ended u[ takin 291 home.. haha buay ta han la... walkin to sch is bad enough le.. it was so Hot~!~!~ haha.. nerd din believe.. he tio shock when i told him kekez.. dan aft sch i went to tm with xz dennis n pei.. haha and u lA~!~! lolx.. haha jkjk thankz yeah fer cumming all the wae down.. haha... sOoo touched.. kekez.. heyz.. im not kindding ok.. lolx... dan after eating.. haha pei went back to sch with xz.. kekez.. sadded.. lolx.. tmart is realli.. damn damn boring siahz haha.. theres nuttin to do besides eating?? that place is emPTY~!~! haha dan after dat i pei him to 201 go n @@ fer his fwens.. haha so pai sehz siahz haha dun even noe aniwan.. lolx.. dan had to go back to sch fer gSp.. sianx half.. haha.. haha.. walk up n down like an idiot siahz haha.. dan after gsp haha went to mac.. lolx.. dan sum fwens.. lolx.. but i duno hu they arz.. haha... wabted to ealk home from tp de.. but was lazy.. kekez.. dan he pei me take 291 lo.. haha.. whoOooo thankz yeah.. haha i owe u alot.. kekez=) hmm got therapy in the mornin tml.. sianz half.. so damn far.. *shake head* ... dan aft tt i duno where to go le.. hahaha.. wanna watch matRiXXxxx=) whOooOo.. sianz.. haha *sLackeR*

2003-05-15T06:54:00.000-07:00

oMg.. sianz siah haha... nuttin to do nehz.. have been listening to the same song since i reached home... dan did my maths home work.. oh manx.. if life is gonna continue to b like that.. i will DIE~!.. arghhHh.. hmmm... dunno wad happen to me this few daes... have been thinking about the past.... sadded... y on earth mux she exists... realli hate her siah... luckily i still cant realli recognise her... kekez... [shi bai] haha... but so wad... eee duno la.. jux dun like her.. haha... heng she goin to grad liaoz siah.. haha if not i will pengx.. kekez=X break record liaox nia.. nv msg him todae.. but jux now i wanted to chat with him online.. he was awae... and him awae msg was like .. still missing u?? walaux.. see liaoz sadded siahz... pengx arz.. yyyyyy... sianz.. tml mux go to school.. cant wait fer saturdae.. haha wanna watch movie=) kekez.. but got therapy.. sianz half.. haha=)hmm gettin furthur apart from my vb frens.. even my ah bus.. haix.. how arz.. i jux dun feel like being with dem lo.. makes me feel xtra.... closer to xin zhi.. pei pei.. and pei wen ba.. i dunno y... rather b with them lo.. at least still got things to talk about. im not myself ani more ba.. my attitude is getting from bad to worst lo.. die die siahz.. how! feeling real slack lo.. the "not bothered" thingy is getting back le.. haf not been replying my frens msgs too... treatin sum of them like... haizz.... how... shit la.. jialat siahz.. duno y.. after em "disown" me.. after quarelling with henry.. i bcame v... hmm duno how to sae jux -.x .. arGhh i duno.. not myself jiu dui liaoz.. so lonely.. nuttin left.. dun feel like moving.. dun feel like talking.. dun feel like loving aniwan.. dun feel like doin anithing animore.. haizyo.. how~!~!~ die die.. hmmm.. i waNna die~!~!~!~! y mux u love her~!~!~! liFe suCkx~!~! *cRapX*

2003-05-14T08:38:00.000-07:00

hMmm backx.. i dunNo wad im thinkin bout nia.. haiz... im confused lo... really very confused... lost in an unknown world... my heart bu jian liaoz.. lost... i really wonder hu will b the next wan hu will b abe to find it ba.. i nv msg him todae-->yM... yeah.. i dun noe y... wan reason is bout my bill lo.. keep on seein him siahz.. i duno y... makes me think bout our past lo...saDded... until now.. after about 1 mth.. i still cant ferget him lo.. why.. hmmm but i dun even think he cares bout me animore.. we are like.. worst than normal frens lo... thats bad yeah... its definitely affecting my studies.. alwaes lie on my table.. look up... can see his class le.. dan jux now.. when i looked up.. he was standing outside his klass lo.. hmmm duno lehz.. why mux all these happen over and over again... haiz.. y... i feel damn dumb lo... its reali stoopid to hold on... but..i jux cant let go.. until todae?? hmmm haiz.. hope things will change ba.. dun realli feel like gettin into this kinda relationships animore.. it realli hurts lo.. haiz.. it leaves mani scars.. mani that cant heal... memories keep appearing.. but i cant do anithing.. hmmm... thats all fer todae... damn tireddxz*bEauTy comEs frOM youR heArt*

2003-05-14T07:42:00.000-07:00

kekez.. din blog fer a long time le worz.. reali alot alot alot of things happened lo.. im gettin slacker le.. as usual.. haha haiz.. reali alot of probs lo.. hmmm its like.. i kinda quarreled with henry.. not in good terms with emily.. haiz.. my best fwens... kinda kena disowned lo... bcox of sum lil problems?? im reali v sad lo... heart pain nia.. but.. hmm thankz to u guys hu cheered me up... getting back tests results this few daes.. like shit lo-.- dissapointed siahz.. but.. hmm duno elhz.. muz work harder worz.. sianz half.. shouldn't haf ton-ed tt week lolx... haha but it was rather fun yeah=) i duno wad to do to settle all these problems lo... wanna run awae.. but.. theres no point lo.. hmm hope things will b fine.. had ssp todae.. fer like... 1 hr?? haiz.. no choice.. wanted to run awae n like.. go home?? but.. haiz.. dun wanna create animore trouble liaoz.. sianz half lo.. i hope that pei will get over her prob soon ba.. worried fer her lo... aniwae.. wen.. kekez.. jiayou kkx=)) haha we will support u=)) zhu.. thankz fer being by my side kx=)) xie le *hEnry i'M sorry... fOrgiF haO ma*

2003-05-10T07:52:00.000-07:00

wahahahah.. i sOoo hapPie todae.. but damn tired lo.. haha.. went out in the morning and came home at night.. haha... i luFf likE siaoz siah haha.. hmm went to watch "anger management" at cs this morning.. lolx.. it was alright.. haha dan went to meet ger thy all ... lolx.. dan all of us wore oP shiRt and jeans.. haha so funni.. dan we went to take piCx.. lolx.. haha.. familY dae. haha.. i so HAppi.. nEver haD this kinda fun for a long long time.. emILy coulDnt make it .. hmm.. the nexT time round kkx=))haha dan went to east coast to meet zhi an dan drank coke at mac dan went back liaoz.. haha... hmm so funni siahz.. haha jon n zhi keep on "quarellin" i luff until i pengx.. haha... reali damn funni lo.. dan the 7 of us mah chiam like attact attention siahz haha... dan xz chased aft jon.. wahaha so funni.. dan his nu er go n push him against the wall dan beat him.. haiz yo.. ke lianx.. haha sorrie la zhu.. couldnt help.. lolx.. i keep on luffing.. yeah.. haha dan we went to parkwae.. on the wae there.. i saw yM.. yeah.. but he din saw me.. i was thinking if i should avoid him lo.. yeah.. coz its like.. i duno elhz.. very funni lo.. avoiding is jux simply a childish act yeah.. haha in the end i din see him aniwae~ haiz.. duno elhz.. tt place left lots of memories.. but.. haiz.. wad done is done.. lOoks as if i cant live without love.. being hurt again n again.. haiz.. i suckx.. but.. haha i duno y.. i reali luFfed like hell todae=) kekez.. thankz guys..=)) had lots of fun.. kekez.. nXt mth we go n take family piCx again steady bo.. haha=) haha dan i reached home @ 7+.. haha suppose to reach home @ 6 siah haha.. dan papa call me to sweep the floor sianz half.. haiz.. duno lehz... so pOor thing horz.. kekez. jkjk.. nu Er.. where is my ah bU dae prezzie arz?? haha u guyS blUff me de.. lolx.. yeah.. kekez=) thankz alot yeah=)) muackkx... hMmm although i saw yM almost everywhere i went.. i guess.. its reali time fer me to gif up? i reali duno siahz.. hmm its like.. we are.. imPOssible to b together again?? haiz.. duno worz.. but.. memories are still there.. i still kinda love him lo.. saddXX kekez.. duno siahz.. haix.. whEre is my heart?? Lost le??? haiz.. bBl... sianX halF.. [thAnkX alOt fEr chEerINg mE uP]

2003-05-06T08:40:00.000-07:00

wahahahh.. hmm im so damn tireD.. kinda like ton fEr 2 niGhts?? buT actuaLLi not thaT bad la.. din slP the first night.. haha dan the second night.. i slept at 1+ dan woke up @ 4.. haha as in am? lolx.. yeah.. haha testS are making me craZZee.. hmm yeah.. duno y.. damn slack lo.. dan go to SChooL likE zombIe lidDat.. haha with chee huat n pei wen fer the first night.. haha daN wenT onliNe in thE moRning.. haha dan fer the 2nd night.. haha heng zhu call me arz.. if not we all die siahz haha.. thankz=)it was reaLli verY fuNni lo.. haha..=)jialat.. im like.. attraCted mY my com siah.. haha alwaes go online n chat.. dan like.. hmmm never do hW.. -.X haiX.. dunO lehz.. but go chAt a feEl lines wif him oSo shuAng la..=) i feel so bad siahz... hmm supposed to go out with zhu de.. but i so damn tired.. still mux @@ fer the rules fer debating.. haiz.. siAnx.. im sorrie kkx.. i promise that i'LL pEi u tmL kkX=) hmm duno lehz.. fer Him.. yeah.. kinda had sum problems yesterdae.. yeah.. haha i noe i very guo fen to call her a bt*ch.. but.. yeah.. i reali hate her lo.. + all the stories my frens told me.. my first imPression of her was like.. eEeeE xia jiAn.. realli lo.. but haiz.. i think i jUX diAm dIam.. let it b.. haha hate her oso no use.. wahhaha.. althought i still haf him in my heart.. but.. it seems useles.. buT @ least i still haf my fwens with me.. kekez.. thankz guys.. haha.. i hopE to sEe him smile more often ba.. todae @ the canteen.. when i was eating.. yeah.. i turned my head n i saw him lo.. he was looking towards my direction.. pRobably lOoking fer hEr ba.. yeah lo.. dan i was like.. "oh Shit" dan i turn awae.. yeah lo.. but tt splIt secOnd was kinda-.X it remimded me of our past lo.. yeah.. especially @ parkwae.. he was damn caring.. damn nice towards me.. but now.. hmm i think he kinda like treat me worst dan a fweN... soBX.. haiz.. goTta stop here le.. wanna pia mY hw le.. eyEs cloSing... *coNquEreD bY conFusiOns*

2003-05-03T20:51:00.000-07:00

ooPX.. haha.. i supPosed to wake up at like...erm 8?? haha.. but i woke up at 11.. haha.. oh no how am i gonna finish studying=X haha sorrie yeah.. made u all call me but i was still sleeping.. haha.. sorrie arz... i had like 12 miss calls?? haha yeah.. n my fone was at level 5?? haha.. oh no=X eEeex.. dis is so crapy.. when i went online dis morning.. eeeX.. not more dan a min lata.. he came in too.. oh Manx.. are we that fated that we can't be together?? yeah?? hMmx... aniwae i hope that i can b as hAppiE as yesTerdae yEah=) kekEz... enjoY youR day=) *hAppIe biRthdaY tO hEnry=)*

2003-05-03T07:33:00.000-07:00

kekez.. wahhaha.. i duno y.. but im so happy todae yeah.. haha duno la.. although i had a kinda.. busy dae.. but i reali had lots of fun lo.. lolx.. hope everydae will b like todae ba.. im trying to ferget him bit by bit... as it saes.. it wun b mine if it does not belong to me.. kekez.. saw him at tm siahz.. yeah.. he looked kinda=( hmm.. izit me or izit him.. kekez.. hmm aniwae.. thankz to all those pple hu accompanied me todae yeah.. ehz.. joN[zHu~] henry.. chee huat.. pei wen.. pei pei.. emily.. xin zhi.. jun qi.. wei cong..chun hwee.. ehz.. yeah.. haha gerlad.. haha an.. siok ling.. jason[sorrie bout tt fone no. thingy haha].. sam.. yong mun.. yeah.. haha n lots more.. cant possible name all yeah.. but reali.. thankz alot.. haha i keep on luffing.. fer no other reasons.. kekez.. theres sum problems with sum of my frens but.. yeah.. i will b sure to b there to help ba.. as u guys alwaes sae... 24/7.. kekez.. 24 hrs.. 7 daes a week yeah.. haha.. take care.. dun think so much.. kekez=)) din reali do much.. haha more of waiting n chattin.. haha.. look at the bright side of life=) oOpx.. got zao ju test.. chemistry and mo xie on monday.. haha and i haven started on ani siahz.. haha shit.. lolx.. haven even do my homework.. haha wun b slping to night le.. haha.. gotta stop here.. thankz guys=)*i stiLl caRe feR ya=) as well as u guYs*=)

2003-05-02T08:14:00.000-07:00

dedIcatIon tIme~.. haHa lAme.. but.. haha thankz to.. ehz.. every wan lo.. haha ok la..ehz.. pei pei.. pei wen.. xin zhi.. dennis.. emily.. jAs.. yuyu.. rong zhi.. junqi.. sam.. xiang lian.. vanessa.. delphine.. elizabeth.. galdys.. lek xuan..cindy.. henry.. chee huat.. jerome.. mathew.. dinie.. ah di.. yi xuan.. zhi an.. alvin.. martin.. mervin.. joshua.. douglas.. dickson.. jonathan.. siok ling.. yee chien.. abel.. zi chee.. wei cong.. jeremy.. alan.. darren.. stephenie.. ping ping.. calynn.. ivan.. steven.. yong pin.. there are lots more.. but.. kekez.. cant name all yeah... not fergetting u.. haha yongmun.. thankz alot kkx=)) erm.. i realli had a great time with ya fer tt short period of time.. take care n all the best to ya future yeah=).. hey guys.. turn on the radio now.. wad eva song u hear now.. haha its frm me =) thankz alot=)) i reali appreciated all the help u guys gaf me=) xie le=) muackxx(",)

2003-05-02T07:46:00.000-07:00

shit! haiz.. im damn irritated... frustrated.. i duno siahz.. ani word n everyword can kinda describe how i feel lo.. i really feel like going out with him.. but i think.. the onli person in his heart is her ba.. y siahz.. i reali dun understand y.. tml will b the 2nd week le.. but.. shit.. im still so damn sad.. so mani things happened todae.. but haiz.. jux.. haiz. i reali duno.. i almost vried in school.. but i kinda controlled lo.. saw him smile this morning.. was so happie.. but dan.. haiz.. was sad too.. can sum wan jux like.. wake me up? i duno y.. haiz.. i jux hope that i will die without noeing it or sumting like that? but.. arghhh... tts selfish tough.. my frens are in trouble too... love?? yeah.. it suckx lo.. but.. it doesnt.. at time yeah... i think im reali tt des fer him lo.. shit la.. ive not been studying... not been listenin in klass.. fer the like.. pass 3 weeks?? haha okok at least 2.. yeah.. i cant totally depend on my frens yeah.. they needa settle their problems too.. i reali needa stand up liaoz lo.. but.. haiz.. jux cant.. i feel like juMping down.. argHhh.. but it wun settle anithing lo.. arghhh helP me~! kinda quarreled with xin Zhi todae.. yeah.. i reali haf tt bad habit to make pple wait ba.. yeah. but todae.. haiz.. i reali din mean to lo.. im sorrie jie.. but thankz fer consoling me yeah.. n doug too.. yeah.. nahz. it wasnt stupid to call me nehz=) thankz alot..=) reali appreciated it.. although it onli lasted fer a few seconds.. yeah.. haha i nv ferget u la.. lolx.. zHu~!.. thankz toO arz=)) haiz.. me n him bo hope liaoz lo.. i giving up le.. i dun wanna waste my bloody time le.. got lots of things still waiting fer me to complete.. determination is the word ba.. i feel damn guilty lo.. sorrie henry.. i realli din noe that.. all along.. yeah.. sorrie.. im realli v sorrie kx.. haiz.. i think i stop here le la.. reali no mood to carry on.. i dun think i wanna go to school tml.. hai shi jiao ren jia pei wo qu gai gai hao.. wanna san san xin le..*giving up*

2003-05-01T04:58:00.000-07:00

haiz.. sianz like hell.. im like.. haiz.. in front of the computer n sleeping the entire dae?? haiz.. i duno wad to do siahz.. so damn bored.. wanted to re design my blog de... but.. was kinda not bothered.. haiz.. at least my parents treats me a lil betta now.. but.. haiz.. i dun noe y.. im damn sad lo... last night.. i dreamt bout him.. yeah.. i dun noe y-.x haiz.. dan wake up tt time.. so damn slack siahz.. haiz.. sianz like hell.. my hp like got blocking system liddat.. cant receive his sms.. but actualli is he dun wanna msg me de lo.. haiz.. die la.. i abit bu diu jin lo.. alwaes luan luan xiang.. si liaox siah... the world seems so damn dark.. shit la.. tml still got a n e maths test.. i haven even started learning.. reali very slack this few daes lo.. yesterdae wanted to study the whole night de.. but ended up quarrellin wif my parents.. todae.. haiz.. i duno la.. although i realli hope that wad happened in my dream wld cum true lo.. but.. haiz.. but thats impossible lo...its like.. i noe im gonna die.. but i jux refuse to and wan to live on.. heart still pain like hell lo... but.. haiz.. i jux wun let go i guess... yesterdae.. i kinda saw his awae msg.. but.. ehz.. i dun remember wad was it.. but i think.. he was refering to wh ba.. ehz.. duno nehz.. tml will b another dae.. i reali duno where i should go... even goin to sch will b a problem lo.. not used to going to sch by myself.. sumting is jux wrong.. i realli hope that i can get my answer soon.. a positive wan.. i kinda admit tt im a person hu jux wanna get wad i wan lo..but.. haiz.. thats me ba.. feel like meeting all of the sudden.. [actualli is alwaes de lo] but.. haiz.. onli can see the foto... sobX *wIll iT b an End oR a nEw bEginNing*

2003-04-30T07:49:00.000-07:00

daMmit.. wad on earth is happening.. wonder if i wait till he cums back.. but.. haiz.. im damn freaking angry lo... my parents wanna send tiNka to the sPCa~!~!~ wahhha~!~! im so damn.. arghh... haiz.. i reali duno where he is when i need him lo.. yeah... lose this sense of security... dammit.. the more i think of it.. haiz.. i duno la.. went out jux now.. cum back le still okok de... feeling kinda =) dan.. kaoz.. my father make so much noise.. sae wanna let tinka off... shit lo.. kaoz.. but luckily i overheard all these.. when my sis cums back... hse'll get real mad siahz.. i duno y lo.. y mux all these happen.. reali feel like dying=X... kant take it lo.. tot can relax like fer wan dae after my geog test.. but.. arghhh... shit~! wanna think of the bright side of life will definitely b a problem.. still thinking of him lo.. i reali duno y... yeah lo.. i damn arghhhh... at least ger told me about wad they were talking bout jux now... yeah.. im sorrie..i noe its reali dumb... i duno wad to do now siahz.. reali lost.. all i hope is to haf him back.. but.. thats totally impossible lo.. dammit.. i dun have that ability to hold on i guess... im so damn-.x hElp~~ jux hope that thinka is smart enough to get back to my house ba... i dun wanna run after her animore le lo.. not my business le.. i dun wanna gif a damn.. *sOrriE feR the wordS useD*

2003-04-30T06:44:00.000-07:00

wahaha.. oh manx.. wad on earth happened to my blog.. haiz.. sianz half.. tml dan do la.. im damn lazy.. haha dun feel like doin.. kekez.. so damn ley chey.. feel like slepeing siahz.. but.. hmm yeah.. wanna wait fer him to cum back... at least chat a few lines dan leave... but.. haiz.. duno siahz.. the more i think.. the worser it gets.. haiz.. feel like going running tml siahz.. but my leg o.O at least he replied my sms... wAooOzX but.. haiz.. duno lehz.. im so fan now.. think me n him had sum misunderstanding ba... yeah.. kinda.. but.. i din mean to sae tt.. he said sorrie.. so... u noe u noe.. haiz.. duno la... jialat.. todae geog... haiz.. si liaoz.. confirm plus chop zhe bai fail liaoz lo.. haha goD bLess me=)) haiz.. quarrel with my parents.. gtg le.. killing time

2003-04-29T07:05:00.000-07:00

haIX... sianz... y mux love b so painful... im on the same boat as wan of my fwen now lo.. yeah... haiz.. i duno how to help him.. yeah lo.. although i reali wish to ba.. its reali very painful lo.. ive not recovered from mine too... haiz.. he called me jux now... [my fwen.. not that nice to sae the name.. jux not him.. aniwae it will b a miracle if he calls me yeah.. sobx] yeah.. n he's damn sad lo.. i reali understand those feeling lo.. its like.. when u dun get love in returned... it definitely hurts... alot..... yeah.. u'll jux haf the urge to get the person back... but... he jux doesnt care.. haiz.. y... for me.. haiz.. i reali find it very duH~ lo.. but... so wad if he doesnt love me.. jux wanna b wiith him lo... but.. tts dumb yeah... if i tell him tt he's alright.. im reali bluffin him lo.. but.. u jux haf to face it... yeah.. lifes like that.. its not the end.. but jux feel like stopping there... its reali very painful lo.. my leg hurts manz.. can straighten it.. shit... haiz.. duno how im gonna survive... got problem walking-.- aniwae.. yeah.. i duno la... but afterall.. its not as painful as me heart yeah=X haiz.. gotta stop here ba.. wanna go n study le.. sianz.. hope that i'll receive his msg ma... *i'Ll nEvEr lEt gO unTil u sAe sO.. n i HopE tT u wuN diSsapoINt me aGaIN*

2003-04-29T02:05:00.000-07:00

jUx reAch homE.. hmmMm... saW him juX now.. sTill nV smIle nehX... maYbe hE saW me dan like dat or wad lo.. but.. haiz.. i duno lehz.. wun avoid him de ba.. if i do.. im jux childish ba.. yeapx.. aniwae.. hmm.. i asked him sumting yesterdae.. but he din reply.. ya.. can see that he doesnt wan to lo.. oBvioUs~ but wad can i do.. i reali hope tt this thing will get settled soon.. yeah.. i dun wanna carry on like this ba.. mY moOd sWing gEtting wOrst siahz... suDdenLy hapPy daN suDdeblY.. haiz.. duno lehz.. reali hope to see him.. buT its imPOssiblE.. the way he chat with me makes me kinda-.- ya.. u noe.. but.. haiz.. he reali treats his stead.. fwens n enemies differently.. totally differently.. wad to do?? *sObx* tml still got gEograpHy tesT.. havEn start studying nia.. laTa muX piA le.. *menTallY iLL*

2003-04-28T04:36:00.000-07:00

*tIredDx* very indeEd.. wa lauz.. todaes therapy so damn long siah... do so mani things.. now my leg soOo woBbly... haiX.. waLK the whole dae siahz.. morning walk frm me house to sch with pei wen.. dan aft sch take 28... walk to the bus stop at singapore post.. dan after tt toOpid therapy... sianz~! walk to kallang mRt staTion.. dan reach tamp le walk home-.- wa lauz.. sianz.. but.. haix.. tts the onli wae to san san xin.. yeah.. duno y lehz.. suddenly during therapy.. i suddenly tot of tt gAl-.x dan i tiaM tiaM fer the whole session... then walking to kallang mrt with jUnqi and Zhi... i sUddEnly feLt vEry faN..tot of those daes when he sent me home and go all the wae back to his sis house at kallang fer tuition... haiz... dunO if i shld love him nortz... its like.. wasting my bloody time lo.. he treat me like-.-[definitely worst dan strangers] yeah lo.. waste all my efFort.. maNy oF my fwens told me thaT its a total waste of time.. doin things fer sumwan hu doesnt care.. i reali duno.. but.. haiz.. i am hu i am ba.. yeah lo.. btw.. martin... therapy dun heal hearts.. yeah.. it hurts mine..-.x sHouLd i lOve oR haTe u

2003-04-27T06:43:00.000-07:00

sianz half... hmm haiz.. last post fer todae.. very tired.. haiz.. aniwae.. yeah.. haiz... at least i gotta chat with him todae.. feel happie le lo.. but.. kaoz.. i feel damn bad.. coz so much trouble fer him.. haiz.. wad ta do?? sianz nehz.. oso duno he gortz read my posts not.. no point aniwae.. he seemed to have ate sum medicine which freezes his heart lo.. onli have her in his heart.. haiz.. y is love so selfish.. argHhhHh.. kill me~! aniwae.. tml needa go fer therapy... sianz.. go there go there got so mani memories.. aniwae.. yeah.. at least he kinda consoled me.. yeah... but haix. i think i dun wanna do anithing le la... i kinda wanna gif up le lo.. nuttin can change me xcept fer him i guess.. yeah.. but.. haven got ani standard ans frm him.. sobx sehz... *yOUr asSumptIOn iS youR doWnfaLL* thankz alAn=)

2003-04-26T23:47:00.000-07:00

siaNx haLf..*wonDerIng wHeRe u Are* sobX.. haiz.. but.. i think we like reali no hope le lo.. but haiz.. i think i jux wait lo.. sorrie guys.. *hope u all undersatnd lo* yeah.. aniwae.. hmm im sTruGglinG with my poa siahz.. duno hoW to do.. no wan teach me le.. sobx.. the hw tt he tot me how to do.. the paper still with me siahz.. sobx.. see le wanna cry... haiz.. wait till the time he grAd.. at least wun see him le.. but.. difficult siahz.. i duN wanna dream bout anithing animore le.. it all seems to cum true~!~! arghh... so scary.. unless its=) de la.. kekez.. going out soon le.. aniwae.. hope that my fWeN can get the gEr he REali loVes ba.. same to u guYs out there.. take care kkx.. wishes fer all... *maY faTe bRinG uS baCk*

2003-04-26T09:04:00.000-07:00

hMmm.. sIanX.. damN saD.. bY thE tiMe i post this msg.. ithink it will b the 27th oF aPril l ba.. but still haiz.. i jux cant get over it.. yeah.. felt so>.< saw him at mPcc todae.. yeah.. dan jux b4 we left.. the lift open.. we was standing there.. wads this... haiz.. i reli duno.. but.. haiz. aft tt i went up n wanted to pasS hiM sumTing.. but.. haix.. he lEft le.. daN wenT to baGei couRt tO pasS it to him lo.. when i talked to him.. my heart felt as if it stopped beating lo.. yeah.. i duno y.. when i looked at him.. there was a great urge of crying.. yeah.. but there wasnt a point.. dun think he noes how i reali feel lo.. i hope that the bottle i threw wld bring me some hopes lo.. i reali hope so.. very long nv see him le.. plus ger took the fire burning pic awae.. haiz.. they are jux helping onli ba.. reali miss him like hell lo.. btH... aniwae.. yeah.. ms teo talked to me dis morning.. she asked me how i was.. and consoled me.. i felt damn sad.. if i wanna run.. needa go n make tt stoOpid pair of shoE... walaux.. thrEe hunDred buckx lo.. where am i gonna find tt kinda $$-.- but wad ta do.. haiz.. reali wanna run fer croSs cOuntry lo.. the whole year.. ive been waiting fer tt dae to cum.. but seems impossible.. haiz.. gotta stop le.. *soBx* i Dun waNna cRy no mOre... *xIao.xIN*

2003-04-26T07:29:00.000-07:00

waHhHh.. hAd sO muCh DiffiCulTies doIng thiS tOopiD thing.. haha.. aniwae yeah.. mani things happened.. too mani to sae.. yeah.. hmm duno lehz.. everything haf changed ba.. the unexpected bcame xoected.. huh... ehz.. crap.. duno wad im saeing too.. yeah.. haiz.. tml supposed to b our second month de.. but.. haix.. yeah.. that was the end.. we broke up fer wan week le.. n i cried fer the past week..-.x haix.. but.. nvm ba.. wads the past will b the past.. yeah.. sum of my friends are angry with me too. im sorrie kkx.. and.. thankz fer all your help... everywan of ya ba=)) i'll try my best to get over it kkx..=)) hmmMm.. i din go to school yesterdae.. wasnt feeling well.. yeah.. n the scariest thing was tt hE din go to sch too.. he was sick.. yeah.. haiz.. how arz.. kinda worried nia.. hmmm hope tt he's alright ba.. ehz.. gotta stop here le.. haha... take care kkx=)) *hOpe tT u'Ll gEt weLL soOn bA*...[thIS waS sUppOsed To b yEsteRdaeS poSt-.-]

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